I'm just so sick and tired of my projects and all those irrelevant alternative assessments. In fact, I just rushed through my humanities review page in 2 hours and it's such a major relieve to know that I've finished my work. I'm delighted that I cleared that stupid project that's been haunting me for the past month ... or ever since it was assigned to me. I still have chemistry, biology and physics projects to worry about. I want to scream like I never did before. But that wouldn't be a very good idea.

I also found out that I'm very likely not to compete this year because Jun Kai took my K1 slot as he is much better and faster than me. Training was a partial disaster today because Sean and I didn't even get to go into the water. We ended up having a tea break at the cafe and going home early because we simply had nothing to do. All the boats were taken except for a miserable K1 which probably belonged to someone else... In other words, there were no boats to take and we didn't feel any zeal to paddle. I'll probably compete next year since there are no other slots left for me. Hmm ... it's a relief that I don't have to compete yet it's such a letdown to my once motivated ego in succeeding in everything I pursued. Things change. People change. I change. I hope to change for the better and maybe I'll win something next year, just like the trophy I wont last year in the C Divisions. Yeah .. I still remember that crazy competition.

My O level Chinese orals are in 2 weeks and they clash with the Canoeing National Championships. Fortunately, the oral is held in the afternoon and since I'm not competing, I can choose not to support the race on the day of the examination. I hope Mr Teo would allow me to do so because I do not wish to shift my examination to an earlier date. I'm so stressed now. I have a tonne of work to complete. I'm looking forward to a long weekend.

Youth day will be a sad one for me. I hope things will change as they always do. But only this time, I hope things change for the better. For the better or worse, things will turn up fine =)
The ability to laugh at situations that aren't what they should be can help relieve tension and put things in perspective. Have a nice night.

Hmm ... I shall keep this post short because it's getting late and I have to go to school tomorrow as usual. The first day of school went quite well .. mum woke me up at 5.15 am this morning which is ludicrous because I only leave at around 6.05 am. I'm not used to waking up early in the morning because I enjoy sleeping late and waking up late. It's a common habit that some teenagers share.

I just finished 2 essays. Now I have to sleep. My maple hair is quite unique now. I randomed it at Kerning and Henesys and I got some low cut shaggy wax ... a variation from the norm. Looks just like my hair now. God has all the answers and wants to give them to us, but He can't until we give him our problems and our ear. Goodnight everyone.

So tomorrow is the day of our Dragon Boat Inter School Competition. I went for training today and I'm definitely getting better on my K1. But when I tried competing with the rest of the team or the first time today ... the best I managed was second last during the 5 250m bursts. I feel very sore and exhausted now... probably from training and playing too much computer. Practise makes perfect, so I'm gonna start working on my strokes and hopefully, I'll be able to compete confidently next year. Besides, even if I'm in the competition this year, the only possibility of me not losing would be in the event of all the other kayaks capsizing. Hmm.. Maybe I shouldn't be so negative...

I find training just like playing maple or audition or any other game. If u want to win in a competition or if u simply want to get better at something, you have to train in an appropriate and efficient format. It's just like playing maple, the more u train, the more skills u get and the more pro u become ... It's just like audition, if u practise chancing and dancing on faster, tougher songs, you will automatically get better. It's just like studying, you study smart and hard, you will definitely reap the fruits of your labour. So now I've made up my mind to train consistently because consistency is one of my best policies in virtuality ... now I have to incorporate this policy into my trainings and studies in reality. Perhaps I'm a bit to chim. Nvm ...

I leveled to 148 and now I'm currently at 40%. Will continue to train when I've got the time. Tomorrow is a hectic day for me as I have to be at Bedok Reservoir till evening and then rush for a wedding dinner on my maternal grandmother's side of the family.


Aly and AJ (On The Ride Chorus)

Life has moments hard to describe.
Feeling great and feeling alive.

Never come down from this,
Now that we're on the ride.

Always knowing we're gonna be fine,
Feeling great and feeling alive.

Never coming down from this now that we're on.

The view is so clear and it's crazy up here,
Life is amazing when you're on the ride.

The journey is perfect, the rides are so worth it,
Life is amazing when you're on the ride.


An uplifting song to lift your spirits. Let's ride the journey of life with laughter, joy and excitement. Give encouragement at each opportunity. Don't overlook "small" steps of progress because every day's another opportunity to shine.

The holiday is sadly coming to an end and I can't wait for school to close again ... that's how unmotivated I am to return to a world of mugging and stress. And I think that's also how some people are not looking forward to the reopening of school. Life is a struggle ... bitter and hard now, hope it gets sweeter next time ... and I wish to go to heaven.

Anyway, I cleared most of my written work so I'm left with these:

Chemistry Project
Biology Medical Report
History Speech
Higher Chinese Manuscript and Essay
Matrices
Chemistry Data Based Question Setting
Pen Awards Essay
Physics Project
Humanities Project (Halfway Done)

If that's not enough, I'm compelled by captain to go for every training because since I've joined canoeing, I have to put in my utmost effort into the CCA ... BlahBlah ... I sometimes wish I can forget about my regrets. There's always ups and downs in everything you do. I'm very happy with my K1 now because I can balance well without capsizing and I'm learning how to paddle the right strokes appropriately ... to maintain a good balance and speed. I don't mind if I'm competing or not competing this year. If I do compete, I've give my utmost and see what happens. If I'm not, I'll be relieved that I need not face the stress before and during the race.

I've levelled to a Clubber in Audition and I passed my license on the first try... which is quite good ... My best chain perfect took place yesterday ... an x9 Perfect chain on DB4 with chance. I forgot where the dance was saved ... Too lazy to retrieve it anyway. Maple is having 2x exp event from 2-4,30pm and 8-10,30pm each day till 4th July. I wish to chiong to 150 ASAP. Then I can concentrate more on my school work. Currently, I'm stuck at 147 82% ... Hopefully, I'll be able to level up tomorrow.

One success outweighs all the failures that came before. Thomas Edison failed hundreds of times on his way to inventing the light bulb. Hmm ... have to practise piano now. Lesson starts at 8pm.

Just came back from my stay at Mandy's house and I am very exhausted. I'm getting weird emails about the 155th Josephian Projects. Firstly, my name is not included and the email is still being sent to me ... I'm really confused and the last thing I wanna do is call the teacher in charge. Anyway, the stay was really crazy and I couldn't control my laughter throughout the whole trip.

I didn't bring a camera so we didn't take any pictures but we did capture a beautiful rainbow across the sky using our hand phones. I have it as wall paper now on my hand phone's display. We had a midnight party as usual for 2 consecutive nights and I kept cracking up corny jokes while eating dozens of Oreo biscuits which are said to contain Trans Fats. We went out on Saturday and ate like hungry wolves. We went to Suntec and I ate one and a half cups of corn, one bowl of onion soup, 1 fried dory fish set meal, 1 slice of cheesecake, 1 chicken wing, 4 spring rolls, 1 mondo cookie ice cream, 1 glutinous rice, and 2 sticks of chocolate ice cream at night. Then we went t0 MacDonald's and ate more fries. Actually, we really wanted to go to east Coast Park but due to adverse weather conditions, we cancelled the trip.

Today is Father's Day and I bought Dad a cute Piggy Bank in the shape of a Milk Bottle. I bought it at Mini Toons ... Anyway, we celebrated my paternal grandfather's birthday at some faraway restaurant along Telok Ayer Street. Before that, we had a quick snack at Carl's Jr and I ate a huge burger and a packet of Wan Ton Noodles. My stomach is so uncomfortable now and I'm getting a headache from over eating. The restaurant food was nice but I ate only one meagre serving of each dish due to my bloated belly. Why am I talking about food? I don't wanna be a gourmand, neither do I wanna be a gourmet.

We played Maple and Audition at Mandy's place but she played the most as usual. Then on the second night, I went up to her queen size bed to play. She wanted to sleep on the mattress in which I was sleeping on so I let her sleep there. In the middle of the night, she said that she wanted to sleep on her bad so I said OK. Then she complained that she wanted to sleep on both the bed and the mattress and started sucking up. Then I exclaimed: What's your problem? And she ended up sleeping on the far end of the quilt in which Rachel and I rested our legs beneath. We found her sleeping like a rock this morning until 10am ... she must have been really tired after trying out so many different sleeping positions... Haha. It was simply ridiculous.

Anyway, I have little time to blog already. I just finished my version of the mathematics logarithmic poem and John's poem seriously needs more effort because it sounds more of a lecture. Changed the blog song recently ... Lasting happiness doesn't come from what you get, but what you give. I need to do something about my incessant laughter. It's contagious once I start ... simply because everyone laughs at me not with me when I start laughing for nothing.
Hahahahahahahahaha ... Hee Ho Ha ~

I'm been training a lot these days. But I didn't go for dragon boat today because the temperature outside is above 30 degrees, I hate the Kallang water and I'm lazy and unmotivated to go. I mean there's training not only five times a week but twice everyday. I wonder how captain copes with morning training and dragon boat in the afternoon. There are so many competitions coming up such as the Dragonboat Inter School race next Sunday and the B Div Nationals in July. There's the milk run 2 weeks later on a sunday and I'm going over to my cousin's house this weekend. This means that I have to skip 3 consecutive chinese lessons because of all these major events. I am tired and irritated and the complications of life. Why can't I just live in a small contemporary cottage in the countryside and play all day long? Maybe that's what I'll do next time ... during my early retirement.

Anyway, I need to finish all my written work hopefully by next week so that I can miraculously concentrate on other projects in the next few weeks. This sucks big time. We havent done anything. Everyone is slacking and doing things that we are not required to do. Most of us hate the projects that we are assigned. The idea of building a model bridge and inculcating physic theories into it is simply time consuming and ludicrous. Haven't we already learnt what we need to know to do well in our exams. I hope teachers don't adopt creative ways of enabling students to explore the subject. I lied in all my essays when asked on ways to promote a creative education. Firstly, we don't want a creative education. We are already laden with so many things asides from school work. No student in their right mind would enjoy creative projects during the holidays in Singapore. Much less 8 projects that we were assigned to finish by the 2nd week of July. I don't think I can bare the burden of working in society, by comparing the workload we are given in school ... Haiz. I shouldn't complain that much. Maybe I'll just shut up and get to work now.

Before I go, here's a nice video of a 4th Job Fire Poison Arch Mage. I want the 4th job advancement to arrive after novemeber, to prevent compulsive addiction to the computer.



God gives us freedom of choice, but he hopes we'll choose to love him and let our decisions be guided by his love.

I love this song ... And the Video is spectacular. I suggest that you view the video from the site.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9F3JH-e2zs4 ... This is because my blog song interupts the video significantly if u view the video here. The "war" portrayed in the video is hilarious. Training was fine today. I only capsized once because of some stupid backwash but other than that, I think I'm getting better training by training. I still have a great deal of holiday assignments to complete and I'm only halfway through them. I'm so screwed this holiday and I guess everyone else is. Life is simply so unfair. We just have to accept our positions in life.

Went to watch Shrek 3 today with Rachel and it was stupendously funny. The story outline was great but I still preferred the prequels because Shrek is becoming too complicated now. And there're suddenly so many fairy tale characters acting in the movie. Justin Timberlake voiced Artie, the little heir to the throne of Far Far Away. I was really hoping for an offbeat surprise ending after the show but too bad there wasn't one.

I love this song too and the lyrics are really meaningful. Nerina Pallot has a great voice.

"Learning To Breathe"

Verse 1

Oh, this road is long, this road is wide.

It takes more than luck to last the ride,

It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,

And did someone ever say to you,

"There's nothing bound in thought you cannot do?"

Well, I've seen some things but not all of them came true.

Chorus:

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first

Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,

And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,

I'm learning to breathe,

No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,

I just need a hope and a light to follow,

Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,

I'm learning to breathe on my own.

Verse 2

And I know a man who lost his wife,

This is the way he chooses to describe his life,

He says, "If I think too much, I find there's just a hole,"

But before she went, she left a son,

He says, "Dad, you're not the only one,

Maybe love is just a requiem for the soul..."

Bridge:

Oh, do you still feel small?

Just a speck of life on an ocean wave,

Does it pull us all? Does it pull us all?

Everyone has some quality you can admire them for. Find it, and be generous in your applause. Goodnight everyone.

We had soccer during FUEL today and the ball kept hitting the ceiling. We played soccer in an air conditioned room but the game was screwed anyway. There was the whole section holding hands in a circle and all the guys in my group were so hyped up about kicking the ball while the girls were squealing away. The catch was not to let the ball hit any part of your lower body but your feet because you need to touch the ball with your feet to kick it, using reasonable logic. Anyway ... I was lucky because I evaded the ball twice. Fuel is so entertaining ... and were get to learn so many new things about God through fun and interactive ways.

Had dinner at MacDonalds and Fred sent me a hilarious picture of the largest sum of money ever dispensed at Macdonalds: 150000.85 SGD... Well, apparently the attendant had keyed in the wrong digits and the change was simply gargantuan. I wonder how such a ludicrous error could have occurred .. The photo simply showed a shocking 6 digit sum on the cash register. It was simply incredible and astounding.

I cant believe that the date for our church's special event is going to clash with the Singapore Milk Run by Beyond Social Services. I can't miss the Milk Run yet I don wanna miss out on God's power and the salvation of many souls during that special event too. Oh ... How am I suppose to invite any of my school frens to come for the event when all of them have to attend the Milk Run. I don't think any of my cousins would wanna go because all of them have their own churches too. Sobs ... Just have to figure a way out with God's help.

I've gotta sleep soon so let's end the post quickly. My posts are becoming shorter and shorter and I've no time to upload any of my pro chains in audition due to laziness and the lack of time. Success is often defined as the transitory sensation of being admired. But when the applause dies down, the true measure of success is the difference you made for good in human hearts. Am I chim or what? There's actually a deep meaning to these short verses that I post at the end of each post. Hmm ... I wonder since when have I started this unusual habit... May the Lord be with you and you and you and you would have read this last sentence.

Just a day, just an ordinary day. Just trying to get by. Anyway, I've always been talking about training since competition is so near. My skills on K1 are getting better but I'm still very scared to turn the boat and paddling in the open today was hell because of the strong wind and tumultuous waves.

I wanna watch Shrek 3 Asap ... before I start clearing all the undesirable projects. I've leveled to 15 in Audition yesterday and I think it's about time I found a guild in audition. Musica De Dans seems to be a rather appealing one... and popular one too. Hmm ... 80% in maple. Perhaps I shall level up by Friday. Everything seems so mundane all of a sudden.

Nth much to post about these few days. So I guess I'll end with the usual positive quote. Share your happiness with others and it will be multiplied.

I was just browsing through blogs and I stumbled through many links of past friends and some church people. I realised how blogs can interlink in each other in many ways. Some posts are really hilarious while some are really touching ... I think my posts are rather bland but who cares because the most important readers of my blog is God and myself. Hee...

Training today was ludicrous. I'm getting better at K1 already and I can feel that I'm getting better after each training. I paddled about 4 km without capsizing today on the K1 and I'm happy for what I've mastered. Coach has put more pressure on me and Sean. We have to come for more trainings and because of that, I am compelled to come for training tomorrow even though my flesh and spirit is unwilling. Sean came today and we had a fun, insane time capsizing in the small pool. JJ was wrestling with a Sec one boy in the water and Sean and I were splashing water into each other's eyes all for the sake of innocent fun. It was a good thing that Coach didn't see us.

Campus Superstar results are out now. Let's see who got eliminated. Faith and trust go hand in hand. Goodnight everyone.

I have to sleep early tonight because I'm compelled to go training tomorrow as usual. I really don't wanna compete this year as it is impossible to master the skills of paddling a K boat in less than 1 month unless I come for training everyday and pray to God dutifully and hope that a miracle would take place. So I tell myself that even if I do compete this year, I would have to try my best to get into the Finals and most importantly, not capsize. Sean is coming for training tomorrow if all goes well and I hope that coach would allow us to paddle on our own instead of forcing us to compete with the rest and causing us to capsize repeatedly. I think I am a very average canoeist. Perhaps too average. I should start putting in some effort into what I chose to do, even though I'm positive that it wasn't the best choice that I picked since Secondary 1.

I'm very pleased that I did 3 FMs in the fastest audition song in maple ... at 188 BPM and came in second to an Amateur who did all 4 FMs. I realised that if you practise something daily, you get better at it somehow, often unknowingly. I'm too lazy to put the screenshot here ... it's saved somewhere in the game folder itself. 2 bads and 1 cool for the Finishing Moves ... Haven't leveled in maple for like one month .. Now I'm stuck at 63% ... How pathetic. I really wish to chiong to 150 but I've no time. I have so much work to do and so much life to spend on other things.

Church was great yesterday. We learnt about God's grace and mercy. If Mercy is not receiving what we deserve, then grace is receiving what we do not deserve. If you contemplate over the statement for a moment, you will realise how blessed we are to have both mercy and grace bestowed upon us by God.

I shouldn't spend so much time on the computer considering the teenagers around the world and in Singapore who have passed out due to prolonged exposure to the illuminated square box in front of them. Let's end the post with a positive note about friends. Friendship does for people what the sun does for flowers. Pour it on and watch them blossom. I'm so random tonight. Goodnight all.

It is finally the June Holidays because today is 1st of June! I didn't go training today because of 3 reasons. 1) I have an apparently huge blister on my sole that causes much pain each time I try to ease my foot onto the floor. 2) I have a tummy ache now. 3) The sky is filled with ominous dark clouds and the reverberations of thunder are so distinct that I am hearing then sound now as I type. I shall have to put in more effort in training on Monday, in which Sean would hopefully be well enough to accompany me in K1 rowing.

Anyway ... the days are flying past me so quickly so much so that I realised how much work I have not done and the little work I have completed. My aim is to finish all my A maths TYS assignments by this week and start working on my humanities project as soon as I'm finished with maths. Then I would have to work on matrices and the chemistry project. After which I would rush through my Chinese essays and assignments in the third week and hopefully clear up the A maths, Physics and Biology projects by the fourth week. I also have to find time for piano and the history project. I really wanna say a bad word now. There is so much to do and so little time.

I shall play a bit of audition now before I launch myself into logs and indices. To succeed in life, we can't treat obstacles passively. We must be aggressive and overcome them with faith, prayer and perseverance.