金曜日, 9月 28, 2007

It has been long since I've last posted. I was very upset just now because I had lost my phone. It was just there in the classroom drawer yesterday and now it's missing. I realised it was gone yesterday while on the way home but I thought that the classroom was secure after school and no one would be so dumb to hack into class and steal my phone apart from the cleaners. Now it's gone and I really do hope that I find it as soon as possible. Terminating the line tonight. It's all my fault and the person who took it.


I guess sometimes unexpected circumstances occur. I rarely lose things nowadays and when I do I get very pissed with myself and I start questioning things. At least now that I'm mellowed down, I can get back to studying. The exams are not yet over. 4 more days next week and we are somewhat free of academic stress apart from O level Chinese exams in November. I pray that I would be more responsible in future.


Aims for my subjects now:


English - A1
Add Maths - A1
Biology - A2/B3
Social Studies - A1/A2


Well, keeping my aspirations up for the next few days. Working towards it.


Love does to children what the sun does to flowers. It works on everyone else too. Doubt sees the obstacles, Faith sees the way over it. I want the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow ... Eh Gold in this scenario doesn't mean earthly riches but rather, spiritual riches.


All the Best for the upcoming exams !

金曜日, 9月 21, 2007

I haven't been blogging for quite some time. I've been busy preparing for the exams but it seems that my preparation has much room for improvement. The revision exercises and homework are pouring in. Usually, this is the most stressful period of the year but somehow I'm not feeling the pressure as significantly as I used to, perhaps because I'm not having streaming or O levels. 6 more days to go before the first paper. I have 15 papers to take this time, about 10 subjects in total, including 4 chinese papers in preparation for the Cambridge Chinese Exam later this year.


I have to work on my social studies and history already. There's really nothing much to post. Even wrong decisions work for our good if they teach us to make wiser decisions in future.


Cheerios .. Bye

土曜日, 9月 15, 2007

Today was an interesting day. I had supplementary Social Studies lessons with Ms Leow after school, only me, Vincent and Darren attended. We discussed Structured Essay Questions and the topics to be covered in the Final Year. It was enriching but quite boring too. I really don't know why we must learn such stuff. I mean though what we study in some subjects may help us, based on what we might become in future, the help given would most likely be minimal.





We had a fun time singing talking about Britney Spear's latest hit single on the way back. Then I boarded a crowded 190 and I had to stand for 40 mins because there was a massive traffic jam caused by quite a major accident. Whatever the accident was, I hope that no one was seriously injured and matters would be ameliorated swiftly and calmly. In the mean time, I was thinking a new melody in my head. Seem to have forgotten it now ... I really need to pen down my tunes into proper musical notes. Perhaps after my exams I shall learn how to do that ...





In the evening, I went out to Chinese Garden to celebrate the Lantern Festival with my cousin. Wore the wrong shoes initially and had to head home to change shoes, my left heel was blistered due to the stupid short ankle socks and the rough fabric of the not so good shoe. I changed into my longest and thickest stocking-like socks, after pasting a plaster on my poor heel. Then I changed into my comfortable sneakers and left home again.





Met my cousin and her father at the Chinese Garden MRT Station. The park was lit with beautiful lanterns. The Theme for this year's festival is "Magical Ocean" and that's probably why the park was filled with giant lanterns filled with fishys and sea creatures. It looked splendid. We watched a performance in which a man did some stunts while balancing a bowl of fire on his head.





The most spectacular performance was that of a teenage girl who spent about 10 years mastering the skill of the unicycle and she wowed us all by cycling on a 3m unicycle, while using her left leg to throw bowls (handed to her by an assistance) onto the top of her head. She threw a total 8 bowls and all balanced on top of her head ... it was truly stunning .. I almost doubted the laws of physics when she laid 5 separate bowls on her left leg and thew all of them up in the air with a flick of her leg. All balanced perfectly on her head as she continued her unicycling... Too bad I didn't have a camera .. so wasted. I was awed. And guess how she got of her 3m high unicycle? She jumped off ... landing on both feet!





Then there was a face changing performance by some opera guy which was stunning too but it was easy to discern that there were layers of fabric behind his mask which easily changed with a certain mechanism that instantly caused a layer of fabric to change, revealing the 2nd layer of fabric beneath.





On the way back home, there was this puddle of vomit in the MRT. I sat a few metres away from it and I could smell the putrid stench vomit. The people around me all scrammed when they saw the vomit and the women covering their noses. One applied lots of ointment on her nose... It was quite funny to see how people reacted upon looking at the puddle of vomit. The whole section of the train was left unseated except for me and 2 other disgusted women. Well... that's randomness for me... talking about silly lame disgusting stuff again. And then someone would probably use Mozilla FireFox to copy & paste this paragraph somewhere & taunt me childishly again ... Haha, you know who!





To forgive is to experience freedom. Few things inspire loyalty and hard work more than trust.

水曜日, 9月 12, 2007

My constipation is better thanks to God's kindness, Mum's help and the concerns of others. I forgot to bring my PE attire which was a quite a major physical blunder. I had to hide in the toilet for the whole period which is dishonest of me but not so since I had to defecate at the same time. The toilet was out of toilet paper and I had to bear with an unclean butt for the rest of the periods in school. It was totally uncomfortable and the anal itching was "tolerably irritating" . Things were exaggerated even more when my friend told the class after PE that I had didn't clean my butt after shitting and some of the infantile ones were being very irrational towards me in a senseless, nonsensical way. The most shocking part of all was that the teachers didn't punish those students who wore uniforms to PE lesson today since it had rained in the morning.


I can't believe I actually defecated in the toilet without any tissue or toilet paper and stayed there for at least 40 mins. I'm disgusted at myself.


Why am I talking about this?


The exams are drawing nearer and I really have to get down to serious work. I intend to kick start my revision after the Chinese prelim exams on Thursday. I will have to memorise history essays everyday and do some maths problems on the way.


Britney's new single is hot and intriguing. I love the sexy tone in the song but she's still a very deluded person. Perhaps I am too... We all have to change for the better. The High School Musical 2 songs are also superb. I like the Sharpay version of You Are The Music In Me ... the upbeat makes the song so fun.


Stuck in a long queue? The next guy is probably just as impatient and bothered by it as you. Give a smile or tell a joke to lighten things up, and see what happens. For the better or worse, things will turn up fine.

日曜日, 9月 09, 2007

Today was a fun day ... apart from my intestinal discomfort.


I went to watch Ratatouille with Rachel at Lot One ... it was an interesting show and we had lots of laughs. The show encapsulated our Pastor's message for service at church today. Remy the rat had a vision to be a cook and he had values in which he followed to fulfill his vision. He walked differently, ate differently and acted differently from other rats. His talent eventually helped someone in need and upheld the value that anyone can achieve if that put their heart and soul into it using the right values and methods, under God's will of course.


Embrace your vision, Engage in your vision and Execute your vision. A Vision without Values is Hallucination. A Vision with Values implemented along every step leads to an accomplishment. I hope my vision is right. I hope it will be fulfilled one day. I need to find my values now. Finding, finding ... Oh I found some: Patience, Perseverance, Love ...


My stomach feels dreadfully full now. My intestines feel clogged up. I'm having a bout of constipation which I dread and hate and loath and I pray that God will help me overcome this menace as quickly as possible. I have pulled through it before and it should be over soon. Mum just gave me some prune juice which is apparently not helping me defecate. I really really REALLY dread this bloated floaty feeling. Each time I try to poop, either nothing comes out or half of the intended waste material plops into the small pool of fluid in the toilet bowl. Argh!


Heaven is not for the perfect, but for the loving. I don't wanna think of my discomfort now. Jesus probably endured a billion times more pain that this.

土曜日, 9月 08, 2007

The Pastor's son

After every Sunday morning service at the church, the Pastor and his eleven-year-old son would go out into their town and hand out Gospel Tracts.

This particular Sunday afternoon, as it came time for the Pastor and his son to go to the streets with their tracts, it was very cold outside, as well as pouring down rain.

The boy bundled up in his warmest and driest clothes and said; "OK dad, I'm ready." His Pastor dad asked, "Ready for what?""Dad, it's time we gather our tracts together and go out."Dad responds, "Son, it's very cold outside and it's pouring down rain."

The boy gives his dad a surprised look, asking "But Dad, aren't people still going to Hell, even though it's raining?"

Dad answers ,"Son, I am not going out in this weather."

Despondently, the boy asked, "Dad, can I go? Please?"

His father hesitated for a moment then said, "Son, you can go.Here are the tracts, be careful son."

"Thanks Dad!" And with that, he was off and out into the rain.

This eleven-year-old boy walked the streets of the town going door to door and handing everybody he met in the street a Gospel Tract.

After two hours of walking in the rain, he was soaking, bone-chilled wet and down to his VERY LAST TRACT. He stopped on a corner and looked for someone to hand a tract to, but the streets were totally deserted.

Then he turned toward the first home he saw and started up the sidewalk to the front door and rang the doorbell. He rang the bell, but nobody answered.

He rang it again and again, but still no one answered. He waited but still no answer. Finally, this eleven-year-old trooper turned to leave,but something stopped him. Again, he turned to the door and rang the bell and knocked loudly on the door with his fist. He waited, something holding him there on the front porch. He rang again and this time the door slowly opened.

Standing in the doorway was a very sad-looking elderly lady. She softly asked, "What can I do for you son?"

With radiant eyes and a smile that lit up her world, this little boy said:"Ma'am, I'm sorry if I disturbed you, but I just want to tell you that JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU* and I came to give you my very last Gospel Tract which will tell you all about JESUS and His great LOVE."

With that,he handed her his last tract and turned to leave. She called to him as he departed. "Thank you, son! And God Bless You!"

Well, the following Sunday morning in church Pastor Dad was in the pulpit.As the service began, he asked, " Does anybody have a testimony or want to say anything? " Slowly, in the back row of the church, an elderly lady stood to her feet.

As she began to speak, a look of glorious radiance came from her face, "No one in this church knows me. I've never been here before. You see, before last Sunday I was not a believer. My husband passed on some time ago,leaving me totally alone in this world.

Last Sunday, being a particularly cold and rainy day, it was even more so in my heart that I came to the end of the line where I no longer had any hope or will to live. So I took a rope and a chair and ascended the stairway into the attic of my home. I Fastened the rope securely to a rafter in the roof, then stood on the chair and fastened the other end of the rope around my neck.

Standing on that chair, so lonely and brokenhearted I was about to leap off, when suddenly the loud ringing of my doorbell downstairs startled me. I thought, "I'll wait a minute, and whoever it is will go away." I waited and waited, but the ringing doorbell seemed to get louder and more insistent, and then the person ringing also started knocking loudly.

I thought to myself again, "Who on earth could this be? Nobody ever rings my bell or comes to see me." I loosened the rope from my neck and started for the front door, all the while the bell rang louder and louder. When I opened the door and looked I could hardly believe my eyes, for there on my front porch was the most radiant and angelic little boy I had ever seen in my life.

His SMILE, oh, I could never describe it to you! The words that came from his mouth caused my heart that had long been dead, TO LEAP TO LIFE as he exclaimed with a cherub-like voice, "Ma'am, I just came to tell you that JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU."

Then he gave me this Gospel Tract that I now hold in my hand. As the little angel disappeared back out into the cold and rain, I closed my door and read slowly every word of this Gospel Tract. Then I went up to my attic to get my rope and chair. I wouldn't be needing them any more. You see " I am now a Happy Child of the KING.

Since the address of your church was on the back of this Gospel Tract; I have come here to personally say THANK YOU TO God's little angel who came just in the nick of time and by so doing, spared my soul from eternity in hell." There was not a dry eye in the church. Shouts of praise and honor to THE KING resounded off the very rafters of the building.

Pastor Dad descended from the pulpit to the front pew where the little angel was seated. He took his son in his arms and sobbed uncontrollably.Probably no church has had a more glorious moment, and probably this universe has never seen a Papa that was more filled with love & honor for his son... Except for One.

This Father also allowed His Son to go out into a cold and dark world. He received His Son back with joy unspeakable, and as all of heaven shouted praises and honor to The King, the Father sat His beloved Son on a throne far above all principality and power and every name that is named.

Blessed are your eyes for reading this message.

Don't let this message die, read it again and pass it to others.

We will meet in heaven!

Thanks for Jackie for sending the mail.

木曜日, 9月 06, 2007

Haven't posted in a while. Been busy slacking away in front of the computer ... I've done very little work this holiday apart from physics and some maths. I have loads of Maths Revision Worksheets left and the horrid Chinese newspaper reviews which I refuse to touch. I have yet to practise my piano later too ...


Anyway, I've finished all my Leafre quests and I sold some of my maple stuff quite recently at the Free Market. I bought a new Pyogo Mushroom and passed 1 30% and 2 60% scrolls on it. There's 3 slots left and I'm hoping to scroll it with 1 10% and 2 60%, with the backing up of white scrolls of course. For now, I'm just waiting for the price of the precious white scrolls to drop.


Everybody makes mistakes...
Everybody has those days... 1 2 3 4!


Everybody makes mistakes...
Everybody has those days...
Everybody knows what I'm talkin' 'bout...
Everybody gets that way...


Sometimes I'm in a jam
I've gotta make a plan
It might be crazy
I do it anyway
No way to know for sure
I'll figure out a cure
I'm patchin' up the holes
But then it overflows


If I'm not doin' to well
Why be so hard on my self?


[Chorus]


Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right
Nobody's Perfect!
You live and you learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's perfect


Sometimes I work a scheme
But then it flips on me
Doesn't turn out how I planned
Gives second grade a stand
No problem, can be solved
Once I get involved
I try to be delicate
Then crash right into it
My intentions are good
Sometimes just misunderstood


[Chorus]


Nobody's perfect!
I gotta work it!
I know in time I'll find a way
Nobody's perfect!
Sometimes I fix things up
And they fall apart again
Nobody's perfect


I know I mix things up
But I always get it right in the end


[Talking]


Next time you feel like...
it's just one of those days...
when you just can't seem to win
If things don't turn out the way you plan,
FIGURE SOMETHING ELSE OUT!
Don't stay down! Try again! YEAH!


Everybody makes mistakes.....
everybody has those days.....
everybody knows what, what I'm talkin' 'bout.......
everybody gets that way


Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!
Again and again 'til I get it right!
Nobody's Perfect!
Ya live and ya learn it!
And if I mess it up sometimes...
Nobody's Perfect!
I gotta work it!'


Cause everybody makes mistakes!
Nobody's Perfect
Nobody's Perfect!
No no!
Nobody's Perfect!


Is your day dark and dreary? Brighten someone else's, then bask in the afterglow.

土曜日, 9月 01, 2007

RE: OBS - Outward Bound Singapore


It was a great and enriching experience for me. There were moments of exuberance and despair. I think my team pulled through the camp pretty well and I'm gonna try to make this post as short as possible because I'm knocked out by fatigue.


I took a lift from Soggy's mum to Punggol Jetty on Monday and all went well except that I had to pee in the bushes because there was only one public toilet cubicle. I met some of my team mates in a watch called Bo Seng, penned after the famous war hero Lim Bo Seng. The name sounded a bit inauspicious though. We reached Ubin via Ferry.


We were introduced to our instructor Zippy or Zhen Ping, who briefly introduced herself to us. She is a very strong person with a friendly attitude towards people and a positive, persevering spirit towards all situations. We took our group photo after some administrative affairs. It was a bit screwed because Li Wei was making a pig face in the informal shot. That was hilarious big time.


During the period where we were introduced to our stores and camping accessories, I had an infrequent fainting spell. I collapsed into a long bench. I thank God for helping me to recover and my watch mates who kindly offered help. It is really scary when you reach the climax of a fainting spell. That comprises of muscular cramps, altered hearing, temporary blindness and hyperventilation. I felt that there was not enough blood going to my brain. I soon got better with some water and God's presence.


We were introduced to belaying, climbing and our stores on the first day. I learnt that climbing and belaying is an analogy of our lives. Our family and friends are our belayers, we are the climbers. A strong family would give us a firm foundation to climb to greater heights. Likewise, we are the belayer of our friends and family. How are we supporting them?


The weather turned against us on the second day. We had pitched our tents at Camp One campsite and I already met my tent mates which are now at very good terms with me. We managed to pitch our tents quickly and had fun having a picnic in the tent at night. My breath really stank because I didn't brush teeth every night. We went rockclimbing on Tuesday in the Multi Purpose Hall. I was climbing a very odd tall structure when I felt like giving up. It turned out that a loop in my harness was caught in one of the rock climbing footholds and I had to free it with immense difficulty, as well as prevent myself from losing grip. I thank God for being able to make it to the top. It was a thrilling yet trepidating experience. In life, we meet such obstacles. The important thing to note is not to yield but to persevere and see the light at the end of a tunnel. We trekked on to Camp 2 and slept there for the night.


On Day 3, we did our land expeditions. We were officially known as rangers since 4 watches combined to form a mega big group. We were sent off to 4 different locations in Ubin to find some clues and do some challenges. We managed well considering the bad weather. Games such as One Side flipping and stone juggle taught us much about working as a team and never to give up. We also had to have proper planning. Lunch was unhealthy because we had no time to cook and it was the first time I ever ate dry maggi mee with the seasoning. It tasted somewhat like the Mamee noodle packets, only dryer and more parched.


Later in the evening, some groups were lost on the other side of the island as dusk approached. They were compelled to go to an emergency campsite and we packed their tents and bags for them. I feel that serving and striving to such an extreme for the welfare of our peers is a really commendable feat.


On Day 4, the rain poured intermittently. We launched our Sea Expedition under the precautions issued by the instructors and Expedition Leaders (Voted among us). We were asked to canoe in a diamond shape for optimum security and that we obeyed considerably well until we were asked to turn back. Our initial goal was to paddle to Sembawang by 6pm but since the weather and the tides were against us, the instructors told us to head back for Ubin.


I had a really really hard time controlling my urine. I drank too much water before and during the expedition that I practically leaked in my pants during the last leg of the journey. My sphincter muscle in the bladder gave way after all the canoes were arranged at Camp 2 during dusk. It was an awkward and embarrassing moment where both instructor and watches went "Eeeewwww"... upon the sight of a large puddle of fluid on the rough road and even more yellow liquid dripping down my calves. When I eventually got to the toilet, I took more than a minute to relieve the remaining waste fluids. I was relieved internally but my exterior was smelly, wet, sweaty and all the disgusting things that you can think of.


I learnt that we had to work efficiently and swiftly in order to save time. Time is of the essence. We had to pitch our tents in the dark that night. I enjoyed the games that we had during small group sessions. It really tightened the bonds between me and my friends. Surprisingly, physical training in the morning was fun as well, except for the fact that we had to wake up really early and sleep really late each night.


Much earlier today, we paddled back to Camp 1 and packed our stuff. It took us really long and I think all of us have to work on our time management. We simply waste too much time doing lame but fun stuff. Everyone freaked when someone discovered a snake in the toilet. Time was wasted when we all when upstairs to view the abruptly infamous visitor. Time was also wasted saying Nei Nei Pork Jokes that were very lame. I learnt to say Nei Nei Pork in Cantonese from my mate Justin. It apparently sounds like "Bo" and to describe someone having enlarged mammary glands: " Bo Hoi Dai". Okay, that was purely nonsense. Don't ever say that to your mother or father because the consequences would be devastating.


For every action that is a cause and a reaction. We have to be responsible for our actions and think carefully before launching into something. We did many many more activities but there simply isn't time to post all of them here and I hope I can remember as much of the activities that we did. I'm feeling a bit seasick now since everything around me is like bobbing up and down with the imaginary tides.


Let's sleep now. One kind word or deed can turn someones life around. What other investment costs so little and pays so much? This camp has basically taught me 3 things.


Think and care for others
Do serve, Do Strive but Do not Yield
Plan & Carry out well, or face the consequences