I went for the gastroenterologist's appointment today, after a delicious breakfast at Queenstown ... the duck noodles there is delectable. The specialist said there was nothing wrong with my stomach or intestines as far as he could predict. Just to be on the safe side, I did a blood test. I realised that the needle didn't hurt as much as it did the last time I had blood withdrawn in NUH, in 2004.


This time, the syringe filled itself automatically with blood, without someone having to draw it, thus there wasn't a "sucking" sort of pain that I quite vividly remembered when I was down with a bad bout of flu in 2004.


The results of the blood test will be out next week, I hope everything is fine then I finally get rid of my persistent paranoia. I have a lot of work to do during the holidays and I need to make up for my CCA attendance. Why can't I find the courage to speak out to others and myself when I need to ... I shall need to pray about that to.


At best, material success will last till the day you die; love lasts for eternity.

I haven't posted in a while. We had fun today, me and my friends. There was supposed to be this class outing at Orchid Country Park, in which we were going to play paintball. Due to the rain, we had to postpone the event to another day. We went to plaza Singapura instead and ate at The Cafe Cartel. This was my first time eating there ... I ate a lot and I feel so full now because of the dory, the cross wedged fries and the seafood assortment, not to mention the peach lemon tea and chicken soup.


We have supplementary lessons the whole of this week and I'm so not looking forward to it ... there goes a week of holiday. I also have to check the training schedule but I'll be excused for quite a bit after my appointment with the gastroenterologist this Thursday. Apparently my abdominal problem keeps surfacing and disappearing as and when it likes. I'm positive that it will get better it time but its best to keep praying and to consult medical advice in order to ameliorate the situation.


Grandpa was sent to the hospital yesterday after a fainting spell or a seizure of some sort. On one hand, there doesn't seem to be any sign of a stroke, but on the other hand, it was severe enough for him to have breathing difficulties and palpitations. Me and my family prayed that he will get well soon ... and continue living a long fruitful life way beyond 100 years ... So far I hope that no one in my family passes away because life is a precious thing that I want everyone to hold on to dearly. Grandpa has surpassed the average lifespan for Singaporeans and I applaud him for that ... claps ... okay I'm a bit weird now.


It seems that there will be another youth service in church on Sunday at 10am, with fuel starting relatively early at 8.30am ... My section has been assigned to attend the Sunday youth service and with the appropriate arrangements, I think that's very possible. I just want to follow God's purpose for me and keep searching for ways to discover myself and my potential. Just like unlocking my heart ... as depicted in one of my favourite animes.


Do what you can to make others' lives pleasant, and others will try to please you in return.

We got back our results today. My results this term were the lowest I've ever gotten but I'm actually okay with it, considering how I felt while taking this term's exams. I got 66% overall ... but as usual I should've scored better marks. My few distinctions this term were only maths, biology and chemistry. I was short of 2 marks for english and 1 mark for geography elective to getting an A ... how dismal. My physics, A maths, history and higher chinese didn't perform up to standard too, considering how bad the grade was. At least I didn't fail any subjects ... so I guess that's a relief.


I shall have to work harder and smarter from now on and this time it had better work since I've been telling this to myself time and time again. I need to figure out ways to put information into my brain and assess it effectively and efficiently. This is so frustrating. But as long as God is with me and I'm willing to make the effort, I'm sure I can pull through the upcoming prelims in the next few months.


Today is so hot I feel like melting. The temperature outside now is like over 30 degrees Celsius. The sky is so bright and merry but the freaking heat of the sun is intolerable. I wish the heat would just dissipate right now. I shouldn't be complaining so much since so many people are suffering from the Sichuan quake and the cyclone disaster. I pray that God will help them to be strong and overcome whatever plights they are currently facing and will face in future. The temperature here is predicted to rise another 4 degrees by June. I can't believe it ... the max temperature then will be 38 degrees Celsius, and taking into consideration our >98% humidity, we will be drenched with perspiration that refuses to evaporate.


I went for training yesterday in long time. Coach asked me to record the time using pen and paper ... which was a nasty joke. Then I had to take T1 and I paddled 12km continuously. I need to buck up on my CCA. There are so many expectations... I need to readjust my life. What's my resolve? I need to find that out.


Faith in God is the all-important first step to true happiness and fulfillment in life.

I turned 16 today.


Time really flies. I have so much to do, so much expectations to fulfill and so many exciting things to discover... Sometimes I wonder if life is a dream, during those periods I have to pinch myself in assurance that everything that has happened, is happening and will happen are all part of reality.


I don't know much about myself. I still need to discover what kind of person I am. I feel that I am made up of many personalities, each with its own unique style of thinking and acting. Right time I'm taking on a reflective personality ... this happens each time I feel like blogging. Our brain or perhaps our soul is an amazing thing. I wonder how random thoughts, connective processes and various issues are instantaneously created and transmitted here and there in our brain. Perhaps, the real thinking and the real me lies in an unseen part of my body, I guess I could call it the human soul, which scientists might never be able to find, since certain things oppose logic.


Anyway, I want to enjoy my birthday and I hope to continue growing in Christ, in spirit, in love, hope, faith, patience, wisdom, health and understanding. Thanks for all the positive statements and differences that people have made in my life. I want to live it to the fullest, with no regret of how I came into existence and changed the world in a unique perspective.


Unconditional love is the greatest gift anyone can give or receive.

Exams are over at least for now. I think I won't do that well this term not only because I'm unwell but I'm not used to sitting in the hall and my studying methods were not efficient. Anyway what's done is done.. the most irksome fact is that school's reopening tomorrow and there's apparently no marking day for us.


I finished watching an anime called Kiba. The ending was good but really abrupt. I don't like the some aspects of the protagonist's personality... and some visual violence. Sometimes really complicated issues of the universe lie in the areas that are suppose to be fun and recreative if such a word exists.


I leveled to 155 yesterday after a few months. Not training anymore till there's a special event again. I need strength, love and courage. I need God's intervention. And the people around the world need these too. Keep praying and never give up hope.


Faith is the soul of success. The poeple who accomplish the most do so not because they never run into problems, but because they believe there is a solution for every one.


Happy Mother's Day!~

The exams have begun. Everyone is on the frantic rush to study, or mug as we usually call it around here. I am no different. I've been down with a very bad sore throat these few days and I had a fever on Tuesday. Biology Paper 2 and English exams are just over. I feel relatively relieved. But I think I could have done better if I really studied for the exams. I've stuck in half hearted revision.


I have social studies and maths on Monday I think ... I have to start mugging again for the whole of next week, crammed with 2 exams a day. I feel like shutting myself in a wormhole and going way back in time.


Labour day was supposed to be day of relaxation for employers and employees. Mum went out with her friend and dad as well. I was labouring on labour day ... Now I'm gonna treat myself to anime before I begin my gruelling study weekend.


Sometimes I wonder about my life as a student. I wonder what it would be like to work in a place other than school ... Life has so many experiences. I have to embrace the present for now and look forward to the future. I wish illogical things and circumstances can occur now and then ... they're called miracles aren't they? They do happen with consistent prayer and faith. But the I guess the ridiculous doesn't happen. There's a distinct line between miracles and fantasies. I'm uttering random stuff now to destress. And our comprehension today was about stress and marriage... whatever .. I shall not think about the past for now except when mugging history.


Don't pass up the true riches of life for merely worldly gain. Why work only to exist when you can live to love and be loved? I truly agree ... My birthday is coming soon ... How exciting ...