I realise that exams are less than 2 weeks away. I'm struggling with partially digested revision and crammed with lots of information now. I need to memorise a lot of history essays in a short period of time. There are lots of tests next week as well. I don't think I should blog now. All my posts from this day onwards will either be very short or won't be in existence because I won't be posting much from today onwards.


When something seems impossible, call on the power of God's love. With His love, all things are possible.

I'm glad that I'm starting to work hard and there's improvement in my maths. I also managed to pass the standing broad jump test narrowly. I dunno why I'm online.


俺は由衣の歌好きです, that's why I changed the song again.


My family and my aunt will be going to Seoul this year during the school holidays. I can't wait. I wanted to go to Japan but the cost of travelling and staying there, even if only a few days, is a tad expensive.


Faith and trust go hand in hand. If you have faith in God, you will trust that He will answer your prayers.

I heard that the kindred concert yesterday was commendable. All the best to some of my classmates who are performing in our class band. Hopefully everyone had a good time last night ... I've never been to a kindred spirit concert before and I probably won't this year because I'm most likely going out with mum to have dinner tonight. Dad and I shared the price of a chocolate peppermint cake, though it's already half eaten by me because dad and mum didn't wanna eat more than a tenth of the cake. The icing is so delicious ... I better cut down on sweet stuffs but I just love cake and chocolates.


There's this physics test on Monday and I haven't began preparations for it. I feel so unprepared for any exam right now. I need motivation but it always slips pass me once I begin revision. So unfair ... perhaps its because I'm reminded of all the other important things in life that I begin to neglect my studies which are equally important. This is so frustrating ... I'm going into "frenetics".


Avoid self-imposed pressure by avoiding unrealistic deadlines and unattainable goals. Yeah right. At least there's church tomorrow so I can calm myself down & seek revival in God's presence!

I can't solve a maths problem. 5 tan x + 5 = [3\ (cos x)^2] ... so frustrating. Hopefully I can solve it tomorrow ... too tired to think already. I scored 34/40 for 2006 chem MCQ. Last year's MCQ was more difficult than that of 2006. Music teacher said that I'm improving. I've been practising more frequently these days because music helps to clear my mind. And its fun too.


My legs feel very sore since yesterday's PE lesson. I've been steadily "deproving" in my napfa tests. I got gold in secondary one, silver in secondary two, bronze in secondary three ... And now I can't pass my standing broad jump. I'm just like 3 cm away from the passing mark. I cant jump long distances for nuts and brownies. I just wanna pass this year... no time to bother about my physical well being or appearance for now. The exams are more important. As long as I can breathe, eat and feel healthy, that's good enough. I changed my blog song.


Heaven isn't only a final destination. It's also a state of mind and heart that we can experience here and now by opening our hearts to God's love and sharing it with others.

I'm quite elated today because I did well for my maths trigonometry test. This is my first time getting above 90% for a trigonometry test ... I could have gotten full marks if not for trivial mistakes. I also did well for my elementary maths test on angles, bearings, area, volume and coordinate geometry ... but I realised that the teacher wants to see working even for 1mark questions. But the question paper did not state show your working! I have to keep working hard to secure 2 A1s for both mathematics.


We learnt about taking initiatives in fuel yesterday. I need to bring my friend to church but he's so unwilling to wake up early in the morning. That's understandable ... thus I shall persuade him to go for service instead of both service and morning fuel. I've improved a lot on my sight reading for piano ... now I can read and play notes with ease but that's not enough. I have to work on slurs, ties, expressions and other ornaments that will "garnish" the music pieces, so as to properly master the art of music and it's appreciation.


I'm considering going for history night studies. There's one on Wednesday. But it clashes with piano. I'll think and pray about it. When you pray, you open a channel to the reservoir of God's almighty power.

Yesterday was Racial Harmony Day. I wore the Yukata in school and turned eyes. But my friends said I was wearing a blanket... a very colourful and silky blanket of course. I think I'm crazy to be infatuated with a traditional costume. But we all had fun at the parade square and the roti prata was delicious. They didn't sell curry puffs this year, I was quite looking forward to eating the curry puffs... then I realised there were cheaper ones in the canteen.

We had a talk about Racial Harmony in the hall which was amusing at some moments and boring at other times. At night, I went for the Battle Of the Bands concert at ACS(I) together with my friends to support a band from our school. I didn't really like the songs they played. But what's most important about such concerts is to have lots of fun and that's what we did at the end. I personally feel the voting system was somewhat unfair because we had the least supporters and only 1 teacher accompanied us along. So out of the 5 bands that participated, the top 3 were from the ACS group of schools. I hope to be able to perform one day but not in such a concert... my genre of music is different from rock but I still appreciate the effort but into preparing the concert yesterday. Apparently, one of the hosts nearly lost his voice. The physical coarseness in his speech was quite distinct in the latter part of the concert, after the interval.

I have to do several things this weekend. I have to finish my mathematics differentiation and integration worksheets, 3 of them in total I think. I have to complete the irrelevant journal that my Chinese teacher imposed on our class last week. I have to start revision for the prelims though I don't know where to begin. I need to pray to God about joining a ministry and bringing people to Christ.

Listen with your ears, as well as with your heart.

Today was physics spa and we knew the topic in advance due to some strings pulled. It went considerably well. I hope I can secure almost full marks for it. Anyway, I'm very excited about wearing my yukata tomorrow.


It smells so lovely now after being soaked twice in the washing machine and left to dry over night, caressed by the gentle night breeze. I just tried it on after bathing and it's so cute ... it has purple, yellow and orange patches all over the white linen. The only turn down is that the straps used for securing the yukata about my waist are a bit worn out and are so red and thin ... I want a yukata belt ...


Feeling bored today. Perhaps I shall go watch some anime and then launch into maths or Chinese homework. I'm skipping biology homework... just don't feel like doing it.


Success in life is found in loving, not just in winning. I bet we all know that. By the way, the picture below is that of a kimono, similar to my yukata, but the one in the picture is much more captivating.

I bought a Japanese Yukata today. I don't really know whether its for guys or girls but it looks cute so I guess that's okay. Thanks to AJ for helping me in bargaining with the seller over the selling price of the Yukata. I managed to reduce the cost by 7 dollars! That piece of clothing is currently tossing about in the washing machine. I can't wait to be clad in it on Friday. Then I will prance about like a little pony princess ...


Today was chemistry SPA Skill 3. It was okay. The Add maths test was surprisingly okay as well ... even though I didn't study for it. I might have gotten the last question wrong because I put (-2^4), instead of (-2)^4 so I had a negative answer which is wrong. Never mind that ... it was a careless mistake worth only 1 mark. History test was okay, I think I can pass because my P1 is very detailed, but my P2 is only 1 sentence... no time.


I have no idea what to study for physics. So I'll just read the text and some notes. I hope it's easier than chemistry tomorrow. Life has to be bright and cherry from now on so that we can all be happy. Sadness is only a falsehood of happiness. I dunno what I'm talking. Never mind.

Faith does not believe that God can, but that God will.

I'm quite happy today. I got 3rd in class for A Maths test ... but then I make a lot of careless mistakes. Could have gotten 5 marks more and I don't know why I don't get full marks for my geometrical proof. The remarks was "Not Clear Enough" ... I'm glad that I got full marks for my linear law question. Omg I become a maths nerd. Now I shall dictate my emphatic victory in the bendemeer mock exam mid year papers. I got 91% for elementary mathematics and 92% for Additional mathematics for that school's midyear ... in contrast to the 77% I had for Elementary mathematics and 55% for Additional mathematics for our school's mid year. I could have gotten higher marks for the 2 practice papers as I made some careless mistakes and I didn't bother doing the mean and standard deviations for some questions. Besides that, I didn't know how to mark my geometrical proof question ... so I just deducted half the marks of that question ... dots.


Okay ... I screwed up the Social Studies test today. I had no idea what to write for the SEQ so I just wrote nonsense. Fortunately, I could remember a few drips and drabs after skimming through the notes. I pray that it will be enough for me to scrape through the mock exam paper. Next week we have a full Add maths mock exam paper on all functions of differentiation and integration. I have to start mugging by Friday. There's also this big history test on china this Wednesday but I find china interesting and I would rather memorise china than Venice. So I hope I do well for the test on Wednesday ... even though I probably wouldn't get an A1 unless God intervenes. I should be positive ... silly me. There's Chinese idiom test tomorrow again and I have to memorise the 15 idioms tonight. I shall do some maths now and revise acids and bases later for the chemistry spa on Wednesday that my chemistry teacher has paid much less attention to as compared to the other chemistry teachers in my perspective. I'm being very senseless now. I'm a nerd. Oh dear. I'm a nerd. Nerdy me.


Church service yesterday was very nostalgic. It brought back memories from where I was still in Discoveryland, the Preteen's service for Upper Primary Students. The banana song especially brought back memories ( the name of the song is unclear to me so I just nicknamed it banana song because a part of the lyrics goes ... nah nah nahnahnahnah .. Don't laugh). We had learnt about leadership and influence in Fuel. The new service had less aesthetics but it's still exhilarating as God's presence was felt. I hope we can grow and grow and grow and become strong both in spirit and numbers.


Pride is like bungee jumping: The initial thrill is followed by lots of ups and downs, and eventually you're left hanging. Hey ... I repeated that statement some time last year.

I'm not at church today because I'll be attending the Sunday Fuel and Service from this week onwards. We have lots of tests coming up next week, including the 2 major practical assessments. We have 2 maths tests, 1 higher Chinese test, 1 history test, 1 social studies test and the 2 practical exams.


I haven't studied anything except some maths, and I've finished the preparation of my history notes. I don't wanna study Venice for Social Studies so I'll just rush through it last minute tomorrow. I am seriously gonna demand for the higher Chinese idiom test thing to be postponed and I wish that the history test could be delayed to Friday.


I finished reading Lovey Dovey. All 5 books in the series in 5 days. Manga artists sure have it hard ... they spend months drawing and plotting the storyline for a manga series and avid readers can finish the whole series in days. But this is not good. Oh no ... I'm wasting time ... though I did learn quite a handful of Chinese vocabulary.


Life is so hectic ... I want it to slow down like now ... Putting others' needs before your own is the shortest and surest road to happiness. I'm feeling very random today. At least I don't feel constipated because I just defecated ... Hahaha.

Monday was Youth Day. The day before, on Sunday, I went cycling and it was exciting as I got to chat a lot about my favourite anime with my cousin. We went to watch Hancock on Monday at West Mall. The show was rather thrilling but I still wonder why they call the protagonist Hancock. That name sounds awkward in English. And what a strange phenomenon that Hancock loses his powers once he's near his familiar. Weird but intriguing.


Anyway, we went to Comics Connection after the movie and I bought 2 copies of the manga called Lovey Dovey. It's my first time buying manga and I'm totally addicted to it now. That's not good because it will take me a lot of time to read through the whole series. In fact ... I went to Lot 1 just to purchase the remaining 3 chapters of Lovey Dovey. Yes, the title is somewhat eccentric and gay but I can't resist cute romantic plots. I guess I have a weird emotional complex inside of me... so much so that the girls inside the comic bookstore were giggling, probably at me. I've learnt quite a number of Chinese words from the manga though ... but I don't think these words will apply for formal Chinese writing ... still I love anime and manga badly.


There was no piano lesson today because Mum cancelled it, thinking that I would be coming back very late from my oral but apparently I didn't. Oral was fine. Despite some rumors that my examiner was very lazy and ill-mannered, these negative values did not show themselves in any way when he examined me. I hope I do well for oral. The picture discussion was about some tourists on a tour bus and the conversation was about holidaying. I'm so nonchalant about today's oral ... I even did Chinese while the rest were preparing.


Here's a nice picture of the great manga series I purchased ... there's only 5 books in total though. The series is relatively new ... being released only last year.

Stay focused on your goals, not your immediate problems.

Today's church service was great ...


060708's message to us was that we are all beautiful. Psalms 139:13 to 16 states that we are wonderfully and fearfully made. I should appreciate myself as I am and not keep chasing after worthless youthful obsessions that make life so complicated and punctuate daily living with iniquitous deceit. But some of us are already aware of that fact ... it's just that there's this complex inside us that makes us feel inferior if we do not look good... this complex is especially typical among the adolescents these days.


I need to bring more ppl to Christ. My friend didn't come today because he overslept. Purpose, joy and meaning in life comes with God and happiness comes from seeing another person getting saved. Well... at least that's one of the ways I derive happiness. Today more than 30 people or perhaps even more than 50 people surrendered their lives to Christ. That makes me happy as our Ignyte family is growing and people are seeing the light. I hate it when friends call the "spreading of God's word" propaganda. The fact that God's love is so pervasive shows that he wants them to be saved. I hope we can grow stronger in spirit, health, wisdom and numbers in the days, months and years to come...


I've posted this poem along with a butterfly picture about a year ago ...


From a bush with thorns comes the beautiful rose.
From a broken heart comes a powerful prose.
From a cramped cocoon comes a butterfly new.
From a tough mountain climb comes a breathtaking view.
From salvation comes eternal life and everlasting love.

Yui - Summer Song

太陽が味方する　
日に焼けた君が　
手をふるから期待してんだ　
約束の季節に　
飛び込む　
人魚みたいに

校舎のすみに　
ひまわりが咲く　
照れてばかりじゃカッコ悪い

ね青空にいま　
叫びたいほど　
君を想ってる

夏が来るから　
海へ行こうよちょっとだけ　
立ち止まって　
迷う日もあるけどヘコむ毎日　
取り戻す日々　
君に会って　
笑いあってはじまるよ　
夏休み　lan la lan la～♪

走り出した　
背中には　
嘘のないキモチが　
映るからTシャツの向こう側　
キラキラ輝く　
魔法みたいだ

花火の音に　
かき消されてる　
君のコトバが　
夜風と変わる肝心なとこ　
聞こえないけど　
わかりあえそうさ

Ah long long long time　
待ちこがれてた青春って　
ほんのちょっと　
意地悪だよね

ヘコむ毎日　
取り戻す日々　
君に会って　
笑いあってはじまるよ　
夏休み　
lan la lan la～♪

砂浜に　
座り込んで　
ふたりで　
時計　
気にしていた波の音　
聞きながら　
約束なんて出来ないまま

懐かしくなる　
いつか必ず砂に書いた　
未来なんて　
あてにデキナイヘコむ毎日　
取り戻す日々　君に会って　
笑いあって“真っ赤なブルーだ”夏が来るから　

海へ来たんだ虹になった　
あの空を　
忘れたくないヘコむ毎日　
取り戻す日々　
君に会って　
笑いあってはじまるよ　
夏休み　
lan la lan la～♪


Translation Summer Song

The sun is on my side because you’re waving to me, suntanned and all
Have been anticipating this Diving like a mermaid into the season of promises
In a corner of the school grounds the sunflowers are blooming
Just being shy will look uncool
To the extent of wanting to yell into the blue sky now I’m thinking of you

Summer is here so let’s go to the sea
Though there may be days where we stop in our tracks and
Feel lost just for a second

Disheartening days Revitalizing days
Meeting you and laughing together
The summer holidays are beginning
Lan la lan la~

Because true emotions are reflected upon the back of my running figure
It shimmers on the other side of my T-shirt just like magic
Your words which are being drown out by the sounds of the fireworks,
dissolve into the night breeze
Can’t hear the important details but I seem to know what it is

Ah long long long time I have been longing for this
outh is something which is a teeny bit mean isn’t it
Disheartening days Revitalizing days
Meeting you and laughing together
The summer holidays are beginning
lan la lan la~

Sitting on the sandy shores
Both of us taking notice of the time
Hearing the sound of the waves and being unable to make any promise at all
Definitely will feel nostalgic someday

Can’t depend on the future written in the sand
Disheartening days Revitalizing days
Meeting you and laughing together
“It’s a bright red-blue”
Because summer is here we came to the sea

Don’t wish to forget that sky where the rainbow has formed
Disheartening days Revitalizing days
Meeting you and laughing together
The summer holidays are beginning
lan la lan la~

There's only about 108 days left before the O Level Examinations officially commence here in Singapore. The plight I'm facing currently is how to finish a meticulous revision of all my 9 subjects in time for the examinations. I need to play a specific time table for each subject and for my personal daily revision.


I feel motivated now that the date is drawing nearer. Time waits for no one... as the caption in The Girl Who Leapt Through Time states. The fact that the upcoming prelims are drawing nearer is inevitable. But I can still prepare myself for it.


I hope to bring my friend to church this Sunday. How you can effect change? By first letting God change you ...

I fell sick over the weekend. But I'm better now. I'm happy that my maths, both A and E, are actually making steady improvement. Humans are such perplex creatures, I don't even understand myself.


I need new music. I improved in music too. Now I can play higher level songs and Korean Pop. I want the Japanese pop book but can't find ... I need to improve sight reading. I got an A1 for CCA for the past 3 years though everything that occurred for CCA this year was not recorded either because it was not updated or because I've been really laid back in my CCA this year ... considering the far-fetched hope of winning the competitions. My goal for CCA that I made for myself much earlier this year has not been fulfilled. I need to revamp my life and I've told myself umpteen times to do just that but to only a limited extent.


I need God's help and intervention to expand that capacity of doing well.


Every king was once a helpless baby, every oak once an acorn, every mighty ocean swell once a ripple, and every great structure once a blueprint. It's not where you are today, but where you are going and what you do that counts. I've a feeling that I've posted this mantra before.